2012 has been a rollercoaster of a year for me. Love has come and gone, touring North America, touring and gig’n in Canada and now sailing around Florida and the Bahamas for the largest Cruise Ship Company in the world. As the end of the year is beginning to near, many questions are starting to arise. What am I doing with the next 30 years of my life? Where am I going? Do I want to continue to live in Calgary? Are the true friends I had still just as true, or a fixture of the past that I no longer have many ties to? Do I go back to land and continue working as a tech or do I stay working on ships? These are just a few of the questions I have on my mind this past while. I understand that I hold the key to my own future. I am just not sure what to do, or where I am going. I have 13 weeks left on this ship and then I have some time off coming to me. This is a fair amount of time to figure things out, however the biggest choice I have is weather or not to keep renting from my friend or if I should pack up all of my personal items I want to keep and find a safe place to store them for the time being and to sell off the rest. I feel like without that bedroom waiting for me, no matter where it is, that I don’t really have a home. I don’t have that small part of earth to call my own. Somehow that makes me feel very lost in the world. I also don’t want to disappoint my friend in bailing on being roommates, although I am sure he is ready for me to leave and he can continue on with his life with his GF. This of course could be seen as my argument for continuing to rent. What is my argument for wanting to just pack things up and store them you ask. Well although packing my things up from my room would be very odd, this does have many benefits. First off, no rent. No more wasting money for something I am not even home to enjoy. I am basically paying rent to store my personal effects. Second, I am not even sure if Calgary is my “home” anymore. Living in the city is very fast paced; it has been my home for the past 8 years now. I have learnt and experienced many things while living in Calgary. I feel out of the loop every time I leave. Every time I return things are different, friends aren’t friends anymore or people have just outright forgot about me. I am just not sure what would be my reason for staying. What is stopping me from working and just backpacking around until I find a place to start something new somewhere else! At this point there is nothing stopping me from working for Carnival for a few if not many years to come, I sacrificed a lot to make it on this ship and to be a part of this company in the first place. I could have no expenses and just live and work on the ship. Save my money and when its holiday time travel and visit family and a few friends before heading back to the ship for another contract. Any thoughts or words of wisdom?

Well I am a concert lighting designer and operator. I also deal in Touring and Production Management. Currently I work for Carnival Cruise Lines as a Lighting and Pyrotechnician.

Hey everyone… im back!!! stay tuned for some new stuff!

My new tattoo

Shambhala!!!!

My Sister & I

I’m doing well. Just traveling back from workin a music festival. What you up to?

awe, sorry to hear you are at home sick. Thats no fun. Glad to here you enjoyed your read ;)

Hanging Out with all the cousins on the beach in Nova Scotia

Well I would not over react. Frankly if you don’t like me that’s fine. That’s your choice. I’d probably just walk away and carry on.